OK, this is amazing! I love this lady!! I, along with others in recovery need to keep this in mind when we hit the low points of weight restoration!! This lady is a great inspiration to me!!
In order for me to become who I REALY am / who I am meant to be, I have to let go of my eating disorder. I understand that I need to eat or I WILL die. That I either put on weight or fade away to nothing! I don’t want to die! So I am REALY trying to eat. When I stand on the scale the number dose not bother me, I don’t wish it to go down or to up. I look at my body and I hate it! I know I am too thin and I don’t want to be this thin. Noting fits me, I look back at photos of what I once was and wish I was there again! But letting go and relaxing around food is the part I can not do. But I am REALY trying. I have life goals and SO MANY reason to recover. I must keep reminding myself of them!! And I telling my self that it is hard but it will all be ok one day!
I lost relationships,
I lost my clothing,
I lost my mind,
I lost my ability,
I lost my health,
I lost my happiness,
I lost my body,
I lost myself.
I am gaining back clothes,
I am gaining back skill,
I am gaining back knowledge,
I am gaining back a future,
I am gaining back happiness,
I am gaining back my body,
I am gaining confidence,
I am gaining back my life.
1. ditch your scale
2. ditch counting calories
3. ditch the triggering diet obsessed friends
4. ditch any friend who doesn’t support you in your recovery
5. trust your treatment team
6. trust your meal plan
7. trust yourself
8. trust your body
9. restore the weight
10. restore your personality
11. restore the light in your eyes
i’ve spent WAY too long at war with my body to not let myself enjoy an extra piece of cake from time to time now dammit
i will destroy diet culture one delicious bite at a time
And I went down and down past the windows of the tower, until the stone walkway rose up to catch me, and every bone in my body broke within its thin case of preternatural skin.
cheese fries
or having any food that floats your boat, not your ED’s
friends
going out to eat
not thinking about calories
happiness
loving yourself regardless of what size you are
unconditional self acceptance
the booty
nice thick hair
strong nails
strong bones
strong mind
accepting love
giving love
being able to exercise without passing out or feeling like death
doing anything without feeling like death
living
thats whats better than being thin, living life free from an eating disorder is 1000000000000% better than being thin
The booty
Anonymous asked:
recoveryisbeautiful answered:
The way I see it, you have two options.
You could take care of yourself and your body so that it’s strong and healthy. You could have a body that you love and allow that love to fuel you to continue taking better care of yourself.
Or you could continue down the path of an eating disorder and not actually get the body you want but end up dying.
Because that’s all eating disorders do. They kill you.
Honestly, you need to focus on self care and love first because there’s nothing wrong with wanting to do better for your body and make changes or whatever- but you need to do it because you love yourself not the opposite.
Changing your body isn’t going to immediately make you happy. It goes way beyond that and you need to remember that.
Anonymous asked:
smallplum answered:
1. save pictures of things and other art that you admire
2. find a book or show with a lot of characters that you like the look of, try drawing them in 10 seconds or less
3. carry some sort of writing//drawing utensil and paper in your pocket//near you at all times and whenever something catches your eye, draw it or write about it !! you can paste it into your notebook later ((if you don’t have the paper, don’t just forget about your inspiration—dig that old receipt out of ur pocket !! find a post it note !! steal some napkins !!))
(taken from my faq, i think there are more in there too but these are the best)
frail-dreamer
